cannot comprehend...

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...how could I be so stupid?

How could I let myself become so blinded by my love for him?

Why did I believe him? forgive him? give him so many chances?


Why can I not shake the thought that I might, as he says, actually have "had it coming?"


I think I know why.... I should have kicked him out at the first sign... I shouldn't have let him go this far. I should have known that his violent temper would only get worse, not magically disappear with some empty promise.


dammit... How is he STILL able to make me feel guilty for calling the police?

How can his twisted, manipulative words still hang inside my head, as I look at the bruises and scratches, feel my sore throat and think, "I guess it could have been worse.."?
How could I let him do this to me?

I am so ashamed.
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sharded's avatar
... meep. take care and, wanting to believe in someone does not make you stupid and does not mean you "had it coming". But, it's always good to know when to draw the line, and, definitely, if there is need to call the police and stinging words in your head and stuff...there needs to be a line.

good luck. if you need an anonymous, non-judging, out in the cyberspace void, person to mull stuff over with anytime, I am here.